Sorry I have been MIA, summer has started, and been started for about a month, but I’ve been working, and I am currently at a feminist retreat. That’s right, I’m in the middle of the fucking woods with 19 other girls, roughly my age and we are educating ourselves on important female issues.

This retreat has been interesting to say the least, but for the most part I am enjoying it. I’m in a bad mood however, so I’m a little crabby at the moment. I sprained my ankle yesterday so I’ve been in some pain and one of the girls here struck me on a nerve. We are discussing sexual assault, and if you remember, I was sexually assaulted for a few years when I was younger. However this one girl insists on leaving the room when we discuss it because it upsets her. Granted I don’t know if she’s ever been assaulted; however I feel like if you run from the problem, you’re not going to contribute to ending it.

I am internally frustrated to the point that I could fucking scream. Every girl attending here seems to think that she is an expert feminist, one said listening to Beyonce is cultural appropriation and I literally just walked away from her. Like I can’t fucking believe some of the things that have been said and done here. Don’t get me wrong I guess I am a feminist, and I feel that I belong, but some of these girls have such a misconstrued idea and I can’t get a fucking moment alone. They are all shoved up my ass because I have a sprained ankle. Then two girls keep making lovey dovey eyes at each other and it’s like GAHHH.

I don’t know if I’m angsty, or hangry, but I have no idea. And I really don’t want to be bothered with anything and these ladies won’t leave me alone.

-Jane