Tag: changes

What Now?

On By janewrites2020In change, coping, learningLeave a comment

So I’m trying to blog more regularly now as a way to help myself cope with entering the real world. I have a physical diary obviously, but sometimes it’s cathartic to just put some words and thoughts out into the world, or even just the internet.

Today I am working my office job, and it’s a little slow today. I have been reflecting all morning about my college career and how much my life has changed since graduating. I was telling a friend this morning that I miss college because of all the excitement, you know? I miss the festivities and the freedom college offered, with minimal responsibilities. I didn’t have to worry monthly about paying rent and I didn’t have to worry about getting to work on time and things like that. I have to realize that my time at college has come to an end, it’s over. I accomplished the things I set out to do and I need to cope with that.

The question is, how?

-Jane

The Real World

On By janewrites2020In change, jane, learning, UncategorizedLeave a comment

Wow, it’s been so long. My life has been a whirlwind of things. I successfully graduated college with dual English degrees and a Women and Gender Studies minor. Jack and I are still together. We currently live together in a an apartment in my home town. I didn’t want to end up here, but here I am. I wanted to go to a larger area after graduation for more job opportunities for myself, but Jack got a spot in the Masters program in Physician Science here in this area.

I’ve been spending a lot of times thinking about what I want to do with my life. If I want to pursue some higher education, what I would like to pursue, I haven’t really decided. Tonight, I have been struggling with a little bit of sadness because my alma mater starts classes tomorrow and it’s strange to watch everyone attend but me, because I finished what I had set out to do. It has always been hard for me to move on when things in my life end. I had no problem with high school ending, but I had a little bit of a problem transitioning to college, and then when college started, I had problems when it came to long breaks and going home, etc.

I’m still trying to find my footing, but I currently work 2 jobs and am taking it one day at a time.

-Jane